2014 Faith Goals

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It’s NEW year indeed! It’s during this season that we signify our celebration with resolutions that we would like to do something about for the next days of the year. Oftentimes, it revolves around two conclusions, “to be changed” or “to be improved.” Either way, resolutions are best represented when based from a plan that is originally pictured from the eyes of the One who causes every thing to exist year by year. So allow me, by God’s grace to use “faith goals” as the best “new year’s resolution” term to share what I believe will happen in 2014. As I spontaneously yet prayerfully list some items, I’m not sure if I can be certain in a specific number. However, I want to be definite that these are what God has planted in my heart to give to Him in full surrender.

My 2014 Faith Goals

1. A Teaching Job. In 2013, I decided to pursue further studies to supplement what I already know in the field of Education. At the same time, my heart (then) was not ready to apply as a teacher so I considered working as a non-teaching staff in an institution. There’s no regret in letting this current school year pass without delving in a school as an educator because I became prepared and excited for the next school year. I discovered a lot of spheres in the field that made way for my heart to love my craft. Eventually,God also allowed me to pass the Licensure Exam for Teachers which really opened doors for more opportunities to influence.

2. Own Blog Domain. I have tried to wisely invest my time with this one and it’s worth it. 🙂 Though this is sooooo attainable, I want to have a personalized web design that I will seriously do with an expert (which makes it a faith goal). Haha! Why doubt, I know some…. 🙂

3. Learn how to drive. This is not a necessity but there’s always a desire in my heart to learn how to drive a car. When I express this aim to my friends, they challenge me to buy a car first (ideally a second hand) before I learn how. This is what makes me “back-off” with the desire to learn. haha. But this year, I want to lay down my cards and trust God that He is able to provide a car for me if it’s His will.

4.Finish reading all my current books befor buying new ones. Sometimes, I can impulsively buy books based on feelings. I’ll buy this because I’m lonely, I’ll buy this because I’m angry at someone, I need to read this because I want to get married, etc. Though books are also seasonal, I want to have that “quality control” on my reading habit. I want to have that perspective that It’s not about how many books I can collect in a month, but it’s how a book will help me seek more of God based on the principles that it suggests. I don’t want to hear myself asking… “Why or when did I buy this one?” at the end of the year.

5. Multiplying Disciples. Oh how I’ve been longing to have a new batch of “girls” under my accountability. Wew. Big word! I’m sure nothing is impossible with God if we know how to obey and move with Him.

6. Regular Savings and Time Deposit Accounts. I hope to share more of this in the coming days. 🙂

7. DSLR Camera. I’m not even sure if this is how to rightly use the term in the digital world. But yes, I want to level up and maximize the resources that we can use for God’s glory. Also, I’m praying that owning a stuff like this will not take away who I am designed to be because of the danger of vanity.

8. Consistency in giving tithes. This is another story, too. But the principle behind this is giving back to God what is due to Him–not because I want to be blessed but because I desire to experience more of God by trusting Him in this area of life.

9. A God-glorifying romantic relationship. I have also prepared a separate post about my relational life but with this one, I’m specifically talking about my relationship with Josh which I hope to be more expectant of God’s presence and plan this year. Thankfully, I’m so blessed to be in a relationship with a man whose heart was already stolen by the Lord and will never be replaced by my love because I’m so limited. As the woman in the relationship, I’m trusting God that I’ll alteast try to be more submissive, respectful, and supportive to my man’s leadership, and that it’ll be my training ground to our coming life together. 😉

Lastly, this will be my never-ending goal– that as long as I live, I desire to spend more time with God and continually live out the faith that I’ve found in Him 6 years ago.

Claiming these verses from Isaiah 43:18-19

 “Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new. Now it will spring forth;Will you not be aware of it?….”

I have so many things in mind which I believe can live in my journal but these are what I hope to share with you as I continually and openly share my heart in this wonderful journey of faith with Jesus, others, and you… May we all have a blessed New Year! Happy 2014! 🙂

Many plans are in a man’s heart,
But the counsel of the Lord will stand. -Proverbs 19:21

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Image source: http://mikemesserli.blogspot.com/2011/12/sunrise.html

And to randomly share some of my goals, here it is…

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We are Victors!

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I was actually watching THG’s Catching Fire with my HS folks last Saturday when a very close friend called me to say that the result of the September 2013 LET was already available. Despite the rising action that’s been taking place in the movie that time, my mind was easily diverted. Since I’ve been checking for it in the PRC website almost every day, I caught myself helpless as the setting and timing of that call was not what I’ve expected! I’m trapped in stillness. However, I can’t help but grab all the gadgets available to research it on my own. My friend then cannot access the PRC website because of online traffic. After she hung up the phone, I was left with no choice but to wait and wait and wait. Unfortunately, my troubled eagerness turned wild as my mobile phone became very silent. No one was texting me to say, “Congratulations!” I was thinking….. maybe no one was brave enough to tell me I didn’t pass. Oh boy… Apparently, calmness got hold of me when I realized I was insensitively nagging everyone. I silently prayed that God will let His peace be felt as I’m close to my most awaited pronouncement which I even shared here last week. By God’s grace, I was able to think of the most possible way to help look for the result. (It’s really amazing how God opens our minds to think clearly when we start to surrender and stop being anxious.) So…. I thought of researching my name in google. And there it was: my name with a code on the left side under the PRC website. I didn’t need to open it. I widely smiled. Funnily, I still managed to ask, “Totoo ba to?” (Is this real?) I wonder if my question of doubt was under the complexity of a female’s hormones. Haha! Eventually, it really turned out that I passed the LET. Praise God! I already wrote that I was one of the hopefuls who desired to pass the test. And I’m so thrilled to share with you my joy as God made his resounding YES in letting me be part of the 39.75% of Secondary Level examinees who made it. My praises to God are countless yet, my learning randomly highlights on the following:

  1. Prayers make us grow deep in God. When I was hesitant to announce that I will take the LET because of my fear of failure, I realized I was limiting God’s power to work. Had I been so mindful of my hesitations, I would have missed the opportunity to trust God more and meet Him in a very special way through prayer. As we rely on Him with the result, we experience that intimacy that will make us want Him more.
  2. His grace is abundant. What’s so amazing about this LET experience is the challenge of “self-study”. I made a decision not to enroll in a review center for the mere purpose of saving 5,000-7,000 pesos. Since I was just starting with my first work in Manila, I was still adjusting with the way of life which was very different in the province. By God’s grace, He provided good materials through generous friends who are co-laborers in the ministry. God is soooooo good!
  3. Failure in a test does not equate failure OF life.  Almost 2 years ago, I failed in an examination where I once thought I’ll build my life around. I was afraid of what other people would then think of me. I’ve measured myself on their standards thinking how small I was. God’s word is very real all the time.  I remember that He really works for the good of those who love Him, those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28) Indeed, God allowed things to happen for us to understand that He is still in control of our lives and that His promise of abundant life is true! In our failures, we will understand how limited we are that only God can really cause us to be victorious. After all, a test failure was never the end of everything.

At this point, I have nothing to brag about. It was really the Lord who heard our prayers that made us really joyful about the result. I can never trust my own self because it is only by God’s grace that I am standing. Anyhow, Congratulations to everyone who took the September 2013 LET! All of us are victorious because He has a plan.

Jeremiah 29:11 says,

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (NIV)

This is just the beginning. Happy Monday! 🙂 Image

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While I’m Waiting

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Coming up in my calendar is a one big pronouncement of victory or failure. When I’m confronted with such inevitable result that’s near my senses, faith becomes a little bit shaky. I say shaky because as the closeness of the outcome becomes concrete and the period of waiting comes to its end, doubt stirs itself with the possibility of an unenthusiastic end.  It makes me uncomfortable.  However, this is one of those trusting moments that causes my heart to be more vulnerable to the One who is always in control. It brings tranquility… refreshes the soul… and carries hope.

If a song will convey what my heart wants to express, this is how it will go:

 WHILE I’M WAITING

John Waller

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race

Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy

But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

 

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I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

I first heard the song when I watched Fireproof with my friends, and the impact of its message did not give that much effect on me that time. I guess even songs have its seasons in our lives as well. 😉 I hope it also ministered to you.

The Lord favors those who fear Him,
Those who wait for His lovingkindness. -Psalm 147:11 (NASB)

P.S. I’m taking some of my pictures from google. I’ll make captions some other time 🙂

 

Just like when our nails grow

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When I was a little younger, I had the worst habit of biting my nails to death. In fact, I didn’t even know how to cut one because the length of my nails was descended from normal. I remembered how serious my relatives were everytime they were giving blast of nail-threats just to dethrone that habit then and there. There was one instance that one of them put the juice of a “sili” on each fingernail. Man, they are desperate! Hahahaha!

Seriously… I’ve been thinking how my nails had gone far when I decided to break that habit. I was surprised to find out that at this time, I can only count few instances where I was able to get a good manicure at ease. Needless to say, I was a little envious of women with nice nails which they can paint in various seasons. I kept on thinking, what are my long blessed fingers are for? :p

When I was riding the LRT one morning, I kinda stared at my nails and saw how long they are. As there was the power of an “LRT ride” to allow reflections flow, I thought of them as symbolic reminder of how my relationship with God grows too. I just came into comparable realizations.

Like my nails then, I was broken and lacking of purpose when I met Jesus. Though I had my plans for everyday, it was like my world is centered in the mere purpose of satisfying myself and gaining the approval of people around me.  When I decided to follow him 6 years ago, I made the decision to allow Him to be the Lord of my life and Savior of my deemed to die destination. Just like the time that I decided not to bite my nails anymore, God asked for my obedience to stop controlling my life and allow His presence to radiate in me which allows growth. In the same way, as I experience the joy of cleaning and painting my nails with different colors because it’s already normally growing, there is also joy when we see our spiritual lives growing in every season, painted with colors of joy which God has always promised…

When I entered in a relationship with Jesus, I knew then that it requires a brave decision to cut the ties with my sinful life, (which in some areas, I’m still a work in progress). We cannot serve two masters. (Matthew 6:24) That is when I’ll see myself growing in love, faith; fear of the Lord, relationships, and eventually in every area of my life. Of course, you and I, the moment that we became children of God were never perfect. But God’s offered forgiveness and grace were never our license to continue to live in the darkest phases of our sinful nature.

I had a weird thought that my decision to keep my nails growing, without being stubborn will just be as easy as allowing God to take control of my life. But what more, it is where will it really start, a decision to let Him take control, which definitely allows growth.

It humbles me every time God uses our silent moments to reveal Himself to us especially when we are in the midst of our busy schedules like our job. Lately, I’ve been lacking of quiet moments with God where I can have unhurried prayer, reading of His Word, and simply worshiping Him. When I realized how my nails are growing by far, I certainly hoped my spiritual life will also grow the same—beautifully and healthily.

Just like our physical growth, our spiritual growth is never instantly nourished. We have to move to feed ourselves with the knowledge of who God is which positively affects every aspect of our lives, our decisions, our character. More importantly, as we learn by spending time with Him, we are also to live them out. From that point, we can surely say we are indeed growing.

Now flee from youthful lusts and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart. -2 Timothy 2:22

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Redefine Culture

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We are doing culture when we use our God given talents, gifts and creativity to develop society.

This was a statement that made an impact to me last Saturday when we (with workmates) attended a monthly meeting with an incorporated seminar titled “Engaging the 21st Century Learner” tackled by Prof. Tan Su Hui of Singapore Institute of English (SIE) at GCC.

I usually find myself attracted to cultures represented by people I meet. Eventually, one of the magnets that pulls me to that admiration are the negative thoughts about my own culture. Somehow, I have silent complaints on economic growth, education, national budget, tax, and even things like laziness, poverty, early marriage, etc..

After hearing the statement twice, I recognized that I have to go back where these personal defining factors are coming from. The effects of hitches that characterize my personal view of my own culture have nothing to do with the society itself. It’s still on that phase where we are expected to be faithful stewards of all the resources that God (the Lord who’s the giver of everything) has entrusted to us. Hence, we are doing culture that is not outwardly typified by mere struggles of the society… like we are moving because there are already problems when at the first place, it is about our obedience to His call of being responsible and accountable to all the resources He provided, be it material, monetary, and even skills.

I am yet to discover this amazing view of culture where it is not admittedly defined  through specific races, but is absolutely and equally defined in God’s perspective.

We are doing culture when we use our God given talents, gifts and creativity to develop society.

Moreover, it is required in stewards, that a man be found faithful. -1 Corinthians 4:2 (KJV)

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indexI sometimes contextualize this kind of learning to the way my future husband and I will raise our future children who will also be part of the society where we belong. Wew! I’m on my knees as I always look forward to raising Godly children who will not be defined by the present issues and trends of the society, but will be identified with God. Anyway… that is all set in God’s right timing. 😉 Blessings!

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LET Reflections.

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Let reflection

128,083 examinees gear up for the September 29 2013 Licensure exam for teachers. This was the headline of one of the news updates in the PRC website a week ago that states the expected quantity of hopeful examinees who (for  sure) think likely of getting a victorious result.

Yes, I’m one of the 128,083 HOPEFULS. And honestly, it’s a bit difficult to be vulnerable about the experience. I have things in my heart that speak a lot every time I have slight courage to share. I presume it’s all about the jumbled feelings of anxiety, pressure, fear, etc. I have this thought of “If people will know, they will be expecting something…and it’s so difficult to explain myself if I fail.” I even had the idea of not telling anyone that I will take the LET so that whatever happens, things will just flow normally like nothing really transpired. And somehow, residues of those feelings are still clear as I write this post. Gah.

Nonetheless, I came through a serious reflection of what I actually feel. Why am I afraid? This is definitely not the only exam I had in my whole life. In fact, I even passed some of the major examinations where all my grades are okay and sometimes… I even got recognition for a job well done. Where are these feelings coming from? As I contemplate, I tried to candidly express my heart to the Lord.

“Lord, I’m afraid to fail…. Continue reading

Irresistible Cuteness

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Cuteness

Now that I’m in a season of joyful single-hood (I mean this in a technical sense. Hehe), issues and whereabouts in parenting are something I’m always interested at. Since I’m in a relationship with a man who courted me for marriage, I will most likely picture a family in the future. (yeah, this is how it is) Added to that is my everyday exposure with parents and students the time that I started working in an institution. Though I’m not working as a teacher for now, which is my personal choice based on my year priorities; I know that God has called me to be one. Surely, this calling (to teach) is not limited to doing it in a conventional school, but pertinent in my everyday life as well.

I’m not ready to delve in the unpredictability of school life in great details, but I have a very special eye in sharing experiences with the most special creatures I have ever experienced—the learners. One thing I’m thankful about the school I’m connected with is the design of the curriculum where character-molding and accountability are essential. I mean it parallel to its consistency when it comes to the implementation. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not promoting. These are mere observations based on a first-hand experience. After all, this is just one of the many schools that serve its purpose well. Here it goes…

There is a student in the school whose personality is a little bit comical. Continue reading